First Love

I entered a room, with yellow walls and a brown floor and for the first time in a very long time, I knew this is where I wanted to be.
I’ve had some of my best memories laughing with you and some of the worst, when I almost had to give up on you.
You see, you were my first love, the one I dressed up for (Remember this is a time I  didn’t even know how to wear kajal), so yes maybe I did a little extra for you, but what you did for me, you, you changed my life you see.
You’re with me every moment of the day,no not your embodiment but in my steps and stride, the way I talk or swing my hands.
I’ve never had my heart racing at ten million miles and the excitement in my voice and tears in my eyes and a huge smile on my face, you made me believe I could be beautiful even with that gap I’m so conscious about.
Did I ever tell you the number of friends I’ve made because of you, or how no matter how many people I fall in love with, there’s something special about you, it’s something only you have.
To be fair, I’d be lying if I didn’t say you are my longest commitment and I hope to keep it that way.
There’s just something about you, I just can’t keep still, you draw me towards you.
And I know in my heart and bones if I ever had to give it would be through you.
I’d be wrong if I say you never hurt me, but for you a thousand times over.
~ A Dancer